The up-to-date normal is way better than the terrible period where I had no footing or center at all, and coming back from being deschemed in a war zone came with a lot of isolation and pain, then but weirdly, it seemed to all set in like it was slow motion, and with help from the legal weed store, counseling and group therapy, I’m finding a way back to myself. Honestly, I think I had no idea about who I particularly was and what I was about when I joined the military, however i knew that I wanted out of town and I wanted adventure. It all seemed to be right in front of me. Plus, I had constantly seen myself as a difficult person who was willing to sacrifice for others. But until I started using cannabis flower products and talking out loud in group therapy, I was lost. Being deschemed was so difficult on me and then with all the trauma of the hostilities, it particularly took a toll. I signed up for more because I just didn’t feel like I could ever fit in at home! Once that second hitch was up, I knew that I had to get out and deal with my PTSD! That’s what I chose to do and it wasn’t easy. Thankfully, I met others like me who encouraged me to try medical marijuana to ease my PTSD and the physical ailments that I came back with, then using the medial marijuana has helped me both physically and mentally. I’m now learning how to feel safe again and realize that there is a life for me here and now.